Bittersweet Life...

Friday, May 09, 2008

Oh, mr.bungler!

read the paper ystday? a stupid man attempted to rob a 7-11 outlet at bradell mrt during a peak hour. unwise choice to start with. he's extra dumb, bcoz there were cctvs both outside and inside of the store. he's extra, extra dumb bcoz the cashier on duty managed to sneak out of the store when he was doing his 'shopping', and locked the man up from outside. haha. bodoh, bodoh. after which, he threw fits, smashing stuffs, in the store while people looked on, like visitors to the zoo looking at a monkey in its cage. for heaven's sake, someone even saw him tie a handkerchief over his face before he started his oh-so-successful plan. when the police arrive, he even got tased since he was unwilling to back down. he's dumb, beyond hope.

some envy me coz im having ALL the free time in the world. right. hah. it's not fun at all, u know. it's not fun coz there's nt much cash to spare from my savings account anymore. and it's not tt i dun wanna work. im just stuck in between.

it's soo frustrating. actually i've got acceptance letter from MDIS, university of bradford. majority of u might go 'mdis? tt's nt too good, isnt it?'. and so did my parents; saying the degree from the mentioned university wont be recognised here. and that SIM, or SMU might be a better choice. yea, it is. but i know i cant get in. ppl keep saying have faith, be positive and all tt shit; but competing with ppl with million tons better than myself doesnt leave me with much chances. bcoz of tt, i have to reject mdis' offer, and await SIM and SMU letter of acceptance, even though ive told the parents tt alot ppl i know have received the letter.

i just so dunno wat to do.

things like these make me hate them so bloody much. i realise they sacrifice much, work their ass off to make ends meet. i understand tt. but at the age of twenty, i feel suffocated once again. again and again. they cant seem to let me go. even for a bit. i fucking wish they just do. i wonder until when im gonna be kept on a leash.

they say they're afraid things might befall me if i stay out too late, and also bcoz they care and all. other kids' parents allow them to stay out late, and dun make a fuss even if they dont come home tt nite. and so, these parents dont care or love their kids, since they dun even control their kids' decisions?

im tired of the same problem again and again. i need to live my life. but they dun get it. at all. they are still caught up in their conservative world, their own methods. after all the things they've done for me, i hate them. i dun wanna live life like them.

aaaaaaaaaaarggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i need to get out of here. i need patience. i need a miracle.

i want.......

Smashed into pieces at 5/09/2008 12:09:00 AM